Relationship:

NOUN:

1. The condition or fact of being related; connection or association.
2. Connection by blood or marriage; kinship.
3. A particular type of connection existing between people related to or having dealings with each other: has a close relationship with his siblings.
4. A romantic or sexual involvement.

I am having a crisis of conscience recently. My son's mother, who i have been emotionally and physically involved with for the last 2 years after losing contact for about 8 years (he is almost 10), and I have been having reoccurring issues and of late she seems to be repeating the mistakes that were made during the first of the 2 years. Mainly the respect issue i have mentioned before. My big dilemma is this, I find myself not wanting to be with anyone anymore. Not just her, but people i have known for my whole life i just don't want to be near or associate with anymore. Now if it was just me and her I would leave, but if i was to do that i would have to leave my son again and 1. I can't do that to him and 2. I can't afford to do it either. When I moved in 2 years ago the place was a disaster zone. The yard was a trash heap, there were rats and cockroaches and other bugs all over the property. The interior of the house was the 3rd nastiest place I have ever set foot in... EVER. And my son's diaper was not changed on a regular basis. He is severely handicapped and will be so for his whole life, so he can't say things like "change me, feed me" and the like. I also have some back child support that if i was to leave again i would be forced to pay, which i can not because I haven't been able to hold down a job because of this same child support ends up getting me evicted from my previous housing situations since i can't pay rent and that in turn makes me lose my job. So my dilema is do i do leave now and try to save what little sanity i have left, which means i will end up homeless and probably dead this time, or stay in a house where there are only hateful feelings and disgust at what my life has become? On one hand i told myself i would rather die thatn be homeless again, and on the other i would still be with my son. I think either way i will lose whatever is left of my dignity and soul. I have been vomiting from stress for the last 2 months at least 2 times a week and don't know how long my body can take this anyways. I honestly would like your opinions, preferably the married or divorced people, or the people that have similar situations now. My current state of mind is to stay and just be here for my son until i either get the boot from her or until i die (which if my body keeps destroying itself might not be to long).

This is something i would probably do sober. Felt close a number of times with lawn mowers.

How is THIS really news? saw it on yahoo's main page. I think this shows exactly the state of our country when that is considered news worthy. It is a stupid phone that will be obsolete in 6 months just like the last one.

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