Hope everyone's holiday was satisfying, and that you want of nothing for the coming year.

Hard to believe it has been over 3 years since I started this blog. a lot of venting since then. in a couple of months I will have been living in this house for 5 years, time went by quickly overall but it seemed slow on the day to day, odd. I have done a lot of teaching here in this house trying to get her to be more independent from her family and it is only just now starting to show. Puts more grief on me from both her family and her since they both know it is me doing it. my gf's daughter understands my pov though and thinks i am right usually. her daughter actually seems to listen and do what she is told when it is just me watching her, she has come to fight with her mother and a daily basis. That makes me even more tired. I sleep but it isn't restful. and starting last month is the 5 weeks of hell for me. as i have previously stated i think, June and a week or so in May is when she works for her family at their family cherry stand. she is gone from 8 or 9 until 6 or 7 at night. this is after the rest of the year she goes to school from 8 until 3 when she and her daughter come home. so during those hours I am, happily, staying home with my son and taking care of him. but we rarely get out and so i am indoors all that time 5-6 days a week. i have from 7pm-1am saturday night to hang out with my friends and then thats it. she usually goes and spends time with her family the rest of the weekend and sometimes even intrudes on my friend time. cabin fever and caretaker syndrome built up over the years and now it is perpetual. i used to be able to slough it off in July but that doesnt happen anymore. then on top of the school year ending i end up home even more. last year was ok, but only because the weather was nice and she walked into work leaving me the car, not the case this year as it has been windy and rainy all week.

thanks for the rant. even if no one reads it. i did see a friend of mine come on after my last post even though she doesnt post anymore so that makes me happy. any connection with her is a good thing to me.

Just saying hello to the masses. I haven't had any thoughts as of recently as I am tired of life. we shall see if I update soon.

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So I finally return home from a week at my moms for Easter, and the house is worse than it was left, HORRIBLY FILTHY now, all she did was clean out the van take it to get washed and changed the oil... and sometime this afternoon she did the dishes (which for her means only the dishes in the sink) and left the counters dirty from making Easter treats from Sunday or Saturday. After living with my mom again for even a week I forgot how much I missed even a little bit of tidiness. God I hate it here. If it wasn't for my son I would be back in Colorado.